More complex than you can imagine!
Updated: Jul 17
I think I know what is the matter with me! Before my stroke, I lived life to the fullest; I needed to keep on my toes to make it, especially during expeditions. I loved to live life on the edge. My thinking "machine" has been there from the beginning. One example of this is my "think outside of the box" attitude on McKinley during the winter.
With my stroke, I've been in a super +++ control environment! Life is so, so boring in a wheelchair. I come from a background like few experienced, and now, I do everything I could to keep myself alive, including skydiving, kayaking, rock climbing, etc... I always try to push the limit of what a disabled can do, and it is working. This is true for my book, internet site, art, kayaking, skydiving, etc...
Now with COVID; prisoner in my apartment for more than a year, I have nothing to do except thinking and thinking. The drug that I abused, for sure, contributed to the result. I realized that the biggest mysteries of this world are actually pretty simple to solve with pure logic.
I can watch only one show, and this is Naked and Afraid. Everything else (except Homestead Rescue) is so, so +++ boring. I'm striving because life is a constant survival situation in a wheelchair. For 14 years, I've been doing my own thing and forgot about what ordinary people do. It's way, way +++ harder to be equal to everybody with a severe disability.
For the last year, I've been trying to find a little excitement in my life. First, I did not know about the show, but my mind was set on having only beef jerky and Ensure for lunch and dinner. I will skip a few steps, but I only have beef jerky and Ensure for 2 weeks. I've been working on it for the past six months. Naked and Afraid came after, and I'm jealous of being stuck in my wheelchair because I consider myself the greatest survivalist. Surviving is, in my case, finding a new way to strive. I've been doing it for 14 years. It is way more complex than a bunch of naked people playing caveman.
Saying this, I watched three seasons, and I did not see anybody bringing a magnifying glass to start a fire? Everybody is struggling with fire; they all have that none reliable fire starter. Depending on where the challenge is, I will consider bringing a saw for blade choice. Think outside of the box is the greatest quality of a survivalist, not only physical skills!